Well this is Maribeth.. Sarahs big sister.. who she loves so much! hah =) well after I read that entry of Sarahs.. I decieded to update for her... & let her know that I am always here for her.. & that i love her..
sometimes things
will happen
in order for
other things to
fall into place..

love you. <3maribeth

couldnt sleep..thinking of him...i've never been so humiliated.

How do you feel when the person you thought you loved turns there back on you. They lie like theres nothing wrong with that. Does he really think ill never find out? Has there been other gurls or has there been drugs&alcohol the whole time?? So its all a lie. When u thought you had everything you could ever ask for..like perfect boyfriend, best friends, smiling all the time..your life then starts to turn around. you lose the boy you love, you find out who your best friends really are.and your smiles diappear. God is the only one who sees your pain, does he see it..do they see it...no! The thousands of tears ive cried latey, everyone telling me i deserve better; its all a fake.People change ALOT and i knew i should have never given my heart away. to be broken..never give your heart away until u kno hes the one your goin to marry..you'll always end up getting hurt. Even the people you thought u knew can change before your very eyes. Why not just make life easier and kill myself..all the pain would be gone..Life if like a living hell for me right now. nothing could make it worse. theres nothing more i want than the past. Just always know people change..and they always end up leaving!

I HOPE HES HAPPY! I GAVE HIM THE BEST I HAD..BUT I KNOW HE DESERVES BETTER!

 Nothing can ever compare to the many lies he told. The broken hearts feeling all the pain. and his life just moves on............

all the LAUGHS, all the SMILES, all FAKE!..teary eyes, broken hearts, cut wrist.

broken hearts last for ever..and the memories never fade      but is there a heart in him.?

Is what people think more important than what the ones you love think...can u trust them??

  I have really been missing my big brother lately..

well.. i love friends..but i feel liek im losin some..i dont know i guess i will just let things all work out..but these are friends i lovvve being with..hmm..i gguess life gives u up n downs to face..can u make it through them...only with God!

                                        <33tAGS

/edit...well...it looks like things have gotten better..me & my lover casey have worked things out..yeh!..man i just cant even say how much i love fRIENDS! they are just amazing..there just to cool for school.(=  theres still things in my life im thinking lots about..desicions i need 2 make.

hmm..deep thoughts..

   do you love me?..do you even care?..do you know what im thinking?...can you read my mind and know what im goin to say next?..do you see the spark in my eye when im with you?..When im with you theres nothing more i want than to run on the beach and make footsteps in the sand, lay and watch the sun..from sunrise to sunset,have picnics at the park, lay on a hammock and look at the sky,just lay in the grass and look at the stars..picking out which one is your favorite..laughing and giggling..kissing and cuddling....until you look over and you see.....no one.. his feeling changed long ago but you just never knew.

I miss...the holding hands.laughing and giggling.kisses on the cheek.cuddling.always having a smile on my face(=.not caring what anyone thought about me.acting crazy with the one i know loves me for who i am.knowing when he says he loves me he means it. the sweet adorable thing he used to do.flowers.when he told me "you look pretty" even when im in sweats w/ no makeup.when he didnt laugh at me, but we laughed together..                                                                                                   i miss the all around guy i used to know...but people change.

FRIENDS- the only ones you can count on in life. the good ones never leave!.you just have fun with them! laugh.giggle.dance.parties.talk about making out with boys.just all the fun crazy stuff girls do..WE just wanna have FUN!

A BEST FRIEND- the only one you can fully trust.the gossip friend that you know it stays between yall.the only one who makes you laugh all the time. the one you go to when life gets tough. the only one who holds on as tight as they can when your falling, and never lets go even if they have to fall with you....and just knows who you are.

                          im just so confused..... <33 tAGS ...

Ahh..welll..hAppy nEW yEAr!! i had soo much freakin fun this break!! so much fUn with the bESt friends anyone could have, went ice skating..hehe to much fun!!, went out 2 eat at Joe's Crab Shack..hehe it was my birthday..ahha, Christmas and New yEArs PartieS, hung out with the bEST boyfRiend a girl could eva want..cASey!, shopped..ooo, and jus all around had loTS of fun with fRiendS!!...we are to CRAZY!! i miss summer!...

                                                              <33 tAGs